i am more by the i am more project
so, all week i've had a constellation of pimples on my forehead. this wouldn't thrill me under the best of circumstances but since i'm growing my bangs out, i'm especially unhappy. a constellation of pimples. on my forehead. so yeah, that's a blast.
but its not just the pimples. its my skin. since i was 11 my skin has been a problem for me. i bounced from dermatologist to dermatologist, trying medication after medication. some that made it worse and some that made me sick. i spent a year in high school with stomach aches because the medication i was on was working so well i couldn't see not taking it. i tried herbal remedies and expensive skin creams. it came and went in waves.
until i was 19 and developed rosacea. another parade of doctors and treatments.
its hard to say which was harder on me - the kids who made fun of me in school for having acne or the adults that would stop me on the street to ask me "what was wrong with my face?"
my skin has actually been much better since i left my day job a year and a half ago. (stress is major trigger for rosacea.) breakouts here and there. this one is by far the worst.
the battering my self esteem took has taken years to partially mend. and so, weeks like this week, it all comes back.
and then today i read this post by margaret cho. it literally took my breath away. even re-reading it before i wrote this post brought me to tears.
WE NEED TO BE NICER.
we need to see the whole person.
we need to not judge people based on their appearance.
we need to not comment negatively on a person's appearance, even our own.
we need to remember that we are awesome, no matter what we look like.
i believe this to be true of all people but especially when it comes to girls. what we say MATTERS. girls remember. it will echo in their heads into adulthood. and everyone deserves to love themselves 100% so they can be 100% who they were born to be.
me? i'm getting there. i am so much freaking more than this constellation of pimples. let me tell you though, there are eight pimples in my constellation. if it doesn't go away soon i'm naming it.