springmaus

We have a mouse. Or rather, we had a mouse. This is the first time we've been petless in 18 years so of course we had a mouse. Of course. Springmaus.

We discovered the mouse two days ago. Shawn was standing in the doorway to the kitchen, talking to me in the living room. Mid-sentence he stopped speaking and got this look that I'd never seen but let me tell you I wouldn't have been surprised if he'd followed it up with man screams. He looked FREAKED. A mouse had run from the bedroom into the kitchen and disappeared. So we did some poking around and some cleaning. We set traps. We were jumpy. I was extra jumpy.

When I was in high school, I rolled my eyes at my stepfather who was terrified at the sight of his first mouse. "he's more afraid of you than you are of him," I said. Where was that girl? I wondered. I was opening the pantry door and thought, really, what are you really afraid of?

Then I thought of possibly the silliest thing ever. A silly thing that kept rattling around in my head until after we heard the trap snap.

He had to go but he left me with a really great idea for a short story. I haven't written one in about 12 years. I'm excited. Thanks, Springmaus Deadmaus. I'm sorry it had to end the way it had to end. We won't miss you.

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music monday

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happy mother's day!

love you and miss you, mom! xo

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music monday

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wednesday words

velleity. a mere wish, unaccompanied by an effort to obtain it.

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update

things have been busy. we had crafty wonderland last weekend and donovan was in town. there was a great deal of eating, drinking and being merry. tomorrow, we go on vacation. we're heading to san francisco for a long weekend. no actual work; possibly even no phone or computer. we haven't had a break from everything in a very long time. so, if you don't hear from me anywhere on the internet for the next few days, you know why.

see you later, alligators!

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music monday

i've been listening to the song pretty much constantly since it was released a few weeks ago. i've been choreographing tap dances to it in my head. we heard it a few times out in the world in san francisco this weekend and shawn embraced it on repeat. i know its going to be everywhere this summer and i'm delighted. additionally, i love me some soul train dancers. so, this video is pretty much the best thing ever. 

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texture and light

our friend polly took this picture. shawn & i have both posted it everywhere we can post it. we both really love this picture. really, really. really. no, really.

we were sad when our friend johnny died and then stunned when monkey died when shawn was in chicago for johnny's funeral. that sucked. add to that some professional floundering on both our parts and its been a really rough spring. i absolutely love making things but i also want more time to write. shawn liked the company he was consulting for but wasn't liking the work anymore. we both were feeling busy and overwhelmed. we needed the weekend away.  we needed a freakin' break. 

we've both recently started to come out of the fog of this spring. a new gig recently fell into his lap and he's really happy with it. work isn't seeming so torturous for him right now and that's nice to see. i also realized (after he told me so about a dozen times) that i just need to make time to write; i'm in control. that's a scary but good realization to have.

by the time this picture was taken sunday morning, we'd fully relaxed into vacation mode. we were both feeling happy and good. i think that's pretty obvious from this picture. well, for me it is. i'm not real sure what exactly is happening with shawn but its giving me the giggles.

we went to SFMOMA last friday. there was an garry winogrand retrospective. they were playing a video of an old bill moyers special about him. while being interviewed, garry winogrand says something about pointing his camera at texture and light and hoping for the best; that sometimes its about luck. i don't know. i'm feeling pretty lucky to be me, to have this life with all its choices and to have had a moment of that captured. although i'm pretty sure polly knew exactly what she was doing and that it wasn't just luck.

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what i've been reading

the knife of never letting go by patrick ness

bettie enthusiastically recommend this to me and i'm glad i listened. if you like dystopian thrillers, you'll love it. 

the sky is everywhere by jandy nelson

i'm sorry. (not really.) its another book about a grieving teenager. apparently sad young adult books were a big part of my coping mechanism this spring. lennie's sister passes away suddenly and she's left rudderless, trying navigate the world without her. she lives with her eccentric grandmother and pot smoking horticulturalist uncle. they're all a little lost but they have each other and they eventually figure it all out. i cried. a lot. still not really sorry.

the other typist by suzanne rindell

i sort of hated this book. i've put it here to solicit your opinions if you've read it. its gotten a ton of good reviews and i can't figure out if i'm missing something.

and here's the current library pile:

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evolution

cookoorikoo is not paying the bills. its not even coming close. occasionally, it brings in some extra cash and that's nice but i'm not selling things like i once was. it bums me out - especially since i've been making such amazing new things. really, i feel like i'm doing my best work right now but there are tumbleweeds rolling through my shop on most days.

pixelparty is where the money is at. i don't talk very much about pixelparty here, or my role in it. the facts are: i do a lot of the production work, i pack all the orders, i answer almost all the convos and emails, and i try to stay on top of stockists. I play a big role in the process and yet i act like its not my business. it may have not been my idea but i do love videogames. i may not have played as much as shawn when we were growing up but there were games i played for hours and hours, games i still enjoy playing from time to time. also, a bunch of the ideas i've had for characters have been great sellers and i do enjoy the work. so, yay, pixelparty! its time to just embrace it.

add to this mix my desire to find more time to write. i wrote book no.1 in november and have been working on editing it in tiny bursts, when i can find time. i've decided that by july, i want to be writing book no. 2 and i want to start shopping it around. those things demand more time than i have right now.

what does this all mean?

cookoorikoo isn't going away any time soon. making yoyos is a happy place for me. coming up with crazy new color combinations and new ways to use yoyos hasn't stopped being fun. but what has stopped being fun for me is bracelets and rings. sourcing materials is getting more time consuming and costly. the colors that sell the best are often the hardest to find and sometimes i haven't been as strict with myself about cost of goods, figuring it all works out in the end. if i pay $5 for this sparkle for one dollar for this bauble but i spent hours finding this piece... it doesn't really work out so well. to try and compensate, i raised the prices on bracelets and it affected sales. so, for now, i'm done with bracelets and rings. they both only ever sell at shows and then usually at a discount.

so, why are bobbypins are sticking around then? after a few years of not making bobbypins, i brought them back and i honestly priced them based on what my materials cost. if i use a slightly more spendy brooch, the bobbypin is priced higher. i feel good about it and they've been selling. plus, its easy to stumble upon things to use for bobbypins here and there. it doesn't feel like searching for a needle in a haystack the way finding red sparkles for bracelets does.

and why am i telling you all of this? while its not easy to publicly acknowledge my unhappiness with the current state of my business, i think honesty is best. i just wish it hadn't taken me so long to be honest with myself. 

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