being a friend

i really can't help but feel amazed by the number of incredible women i've met since i moved to portland. this is not to say chicago doesn't have its fair share. 

anyway, this morning i found myself at bettie's surrounded by lovely ladies. some i've been friends with for almost the entirety of our time in portland, some i'd just met. it was such a nice way to spend part of a rainy sunday. 

emily, bettie and i were talking. emily said, "wait! you've only been here a year! i feel like i've know you forever." bettie said, " well, shana packs a lot of friendship into a short amount of time."

driving home i was thinking about that and something lucy told me: you need to be a friend first in order to have friends. i'd never given it much thought but i've decided lucy was totally right. i guess i've been living by those words for awhile now without even realizing it. thanks, lucy.

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leaving on a jet plane

home. happy to be here.

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flashback friday

on top of the eiffel tower - early october, 2003

you wouldn't guess it but about an hour before this picture was taken, shawn & i were screaming at one another underneath the eiffel tower. screaming. "i hate you! why did i come here with you?!" screaming. oh yeah. it was not awesome. 

we had been traveling for almost 2 weeks. we'd spent a few lovely days in amsterdam and then met up with our friends in italy we spent the week prior in cinque terre hiking, drinking, eating, swiming, sleeping in. it was blissful.

we weren't supposed to go to italy and we were supposed to go to paris first. that would've been the smart way to do it but there was a hurricane on the east coast and we were forced to change our plans. instead of flying into paris, we'd fly to amsterdam. the change in our route precipitated a change in heart on shawn's behalf and next thing i knew we were flying to nice and renting a car to drive to italy to meet our friends. we would stay for a week and then make our way back to paris. we did it all wrong.

cinque terre was sunny and warm. it smelled like harvested grapes and olives. we rented an apartment that was small and cozy. even though it was off the piazza in corniglia, it was quiet. we swam and laughed and fed stray cats leftover bits of fish, which we ate every night. we were in paradise. 

paris was cold and rainy and it smelled like well, paris. we both caught a cold within moments of our arrival. our hotel was under construction and smelled like turpentine. the construction started in the wee small hours and went far too late. the last straw though? my shoes, my trusty campers that had served me so well over the course of the trip, decided they were through playing nice. my feet hurt and i'd had it. HAD IT. we were in hell. 

i'm not sure how it started. all i knew is that we were about to break up underneath the eiffel tower, yelling at each other like we had never yelled at one another. we were starting to attract attention. i cringe when i think about it now.

a nearby old man turned and scolded us, "you are in PARIS. act like it! "

my memory is a bit foggy, what with the cold medication and all, but i think we burst into laughter. we kissed, made up, and made the best of our remaining 36 hours in paris. 

someday though, i'd like a paris do-over. 

also not awesome, my BLONDE hair in that picture. what is up with that?

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flashback friday

we moved to portland a year ago. its weird. it feels like its only been 10 minutes AND like we've been here forever. shawn seems to think portland was absolutely our destiny. i can't really say i disagree with him. best decision ever.

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let it snow

i forgot. i've spent so much time thinking about how miserable snow and winter are that i forgot. i just remembered how miserable the last few winters in chicago were. i only remembered snow coated in grime moments after it fell and the wind chills that made me feel as though my internal organs were frostbitten and shutting down. 

i forgot how magical it is, how quietly electric. i pulled my boots on, grabbed my camera and wandered around our block for a little while. there's no one out. i saw a tiny face peering excitedly out of a window across the street, hoping for a snow day. a cat was sauntering through our yard, looking a little befuddled. the light is lovely. the tree branches are straining to support the weight of what looks like a lot of snow. a lot of snow. already. it feels like it just started. 

i really did forget that i love the first snow. i always have. i always will.

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and now for something completely different

i love (almost) all wes anderson's movies. (darjeeling limited, i'm looking at you.) so, this trailer delights me. i could tell you how many times i've watched it but you might worry about me a little.

let's play "what's in my bag?" i've seen pictures like this forever. wasn't there even a kate spade book? i've wanted to do one myself but never got around to it. but since i'm doing the #janphotoaday challenge on instagram, it finally happened.

so, from the top left: my day planner, a small pouch containing black phoenix alchemy lab imps, my headphones, my wallet, the grass cutting sword by catherynne  valente, a made by hank pouch filled with pencils and pens (mostly papermate flair pens, my favorite), my keys, a hair thingamy i bought here, the happiness project by gretchen rubin, a notebook given to me by donovan, filled with my world domination plans, tarte matte lip stain and burt's bees pomegranate lip balm. well, that was fun.

i also need to thank everyone. yesterday's blog post was about as much fun to write as an ingrown toenail. sometimes i just need to get this stuff off my chest and its good to know that i can do that here. the support i received here and on twitter was incredible. and although it wasn't some elaborate rouse to garner compliments, they are heartily appreciated. i know i'm awesome. some days its just harder to remember that than others. so, thanks. many many thanks. 

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flashback friday

a few nights ago i had a dream that i lost shawn in a cathedral. instead of waking up stressed out, i woke up smiling. it reminded me of the time i actually lost him in a cathedral. THE cathedral actually - at the vatican. unlike the scooter incident, it wasn't at all scary. it was sort of comical.

shawn has to stop and read every word on every sign everywhere. so, while i walk slower than he does, i am often miles ahead of him when there's learning to do. i read the bits i find interesting and move along. and that's how we lost each other at st. peter's. i got too far ahead of him and there are these GIANT columns everywhere that block the field of vision in almost every direction. because its a church, you can't just walk around shouting "marco!" "polo!" its possible people, you know, praying might find that disrespectful. the find your friends app? not an option.  it was 2003. iphones didn't exist yet and it was too expensive to get ONE cell phone to use in europe, let alone two. so, i found a central location and stayed put. i people watched and guessed who were just tourists like us and who were true believers. i could've done that for hours, happily, and i figured he'd have to wander by at some point. this picture is from when he found me.  he swears there were angels singing and harps playing when he saw me. i kind of doubt that. the angels at st. peter's have better things to do. we are jewish, after all. 

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happy new year!

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flashback friday

one year ago today i was getting ready. getting ready to celebrate our last christmas in our house in chicago. getting ready to leave chicago. there were boxes to pack, cookies to bake and a house to decorate. there were tears - i remember them quite clearly. it was exciting and sad. 

today was the most relaxed i've been on december 23 since i was a kid. it feels so strange. on the other hand, thinking about what the next year holds is pretty exciting and i do miss my family and friends. no matter how different this all feels i'm still the same girl.

if you'd have asked me last year, i definitely wouldn't have guessed that this is how i'd spend my week.

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things i love tuesday

we're spending the week at the coast with emily and family. people i adore in a gorgeous place. we even lit chanukah candles and ate latkes. things i love indeed.

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